I did, for a long time....a long time. Long story short, when you're told things negative about yourself, you begin to believe them after awhile. Then, I made a change in my life and met some wonderful people. Then, I met the most wonderful man and finally know what it's like to be loved for who I am, not someone else's idea of who I should be. That in and of itself has given me more self esteem than I have ever known.